hellloo to my blogspot
wow i must say i kinda missed u
its been a lot going on since my last post
a whole semester at school
im older
doing better
and still livin i heart my life
miss u guys
im always on twitter follow @Lo0velymztasher
ill hit u back
to0dlezz
-Lo0vely
Wednesday, January 20
Tuesday, September 22
`School's in Session
P R O D U C T I V E
is the word.
yess this fall i am deffinitly on my grind staying in my books and focused. im going for the 3.5-4.0 ranqe. So far i have really enjoyed myself here at school. I have great roomies && have met many new ppl. Its pretty kool.
recently got a job yessss so i start working sunday.
this semester im also very busy active member of the BSU on my campus and just doing it all.
i hope for the best this semester in everything i do, i will be sure to make sure its that!
i also made a twitter im new too it so0o follow mee
Twitter.com/Lo0velyMztasher
--Lo0vely.
is the word.
yess this fall i am deffinitly on my grind staying in my books and focused. im going for the 3.5-4.0 ranqe. So far i have really enjoyed myself here at school. I have great roomies && have met many new ppl. Its pretty kool.
recently got a job yessss so i start working sunday.
this semester im also very busy active member of the BSU on my campus and just doing it all.
i hope for the best this semester in everything i do, i will be sure to make sure its that!
i also made a twitter im new too it so0o follow mee
Twitter.com/Lo0velyMztasher
--Lo0vely.
Monday, August 24
; summer x wrapp up
as the lo0vely summer komes to an end, school time is approaching im slowly making my changes to be a better me and a great young woman. I did not have the best summer but i learned from people. I had the best last 3 weeks at home with my best friends. Quote of the summer thas really key to life-- "Don`t make some one a priority that only makes you an option". && that's the realist thing. qoing into my next year of college just know i gotta stay focused. keep a strong mind and stay down to earth. i enjoy hanging out and having fun but i can not let that in the way of things, im deff tryna go places soon. im just gettin started.
so few things are gotta stay away from drama- drama filled people-&& ppl stressin me out. i dont have time for that or people's drama and me getting mixed in it. [;
soo going back to cali tomorrow with my head str8 on.
bloqs will probably be back to it's regularly post i feel like im not showing my creative side enouqh--haha.
--Lo0vely*
so few things are gotta stay away from drama- drama filled people-&& ppl stressin me out. i dont have time for that or people's drama and me getting mixed in it. [;
soo going back to cali tomorrow with my head str8 on.
bloqs will probably be back to it's regularly post i feel like im not showing my creative side enouqh--haha.
--Lo0vely*
Monday, August 17
--honestly--
i just know my future will all fall into place the way the lord wants it.
i will keep my faith and let him just lead me in that direction. all i kan do is what i am supposed to do, i know that i am a veryy strong person. i have been through soo little, but yet soo much. && i always keep in mind that my situation is nothing compared to so many other people. with that said im just soooo thankful (x a milli) for the options and opportunities i have been blessed with. (: i see many of my friends that have to go and do that extra mile of things and they know they if they don't do it it won't get done. with that said i know i had many "desires" i`ll just say of where i want to be. right now i just feel like im on my own ( deff in my own lil world-lolz) island with my location. by the ways its been for my idk where i would be my happiest at. my happiness is always at the moment i`ve learned, && more than that it depends on who im with. if im very lonely (as i've been for the past couple months) i realized im just not happy. its not good for me to depend on others to create my happiness && i want to learn how i can make my own self happy with out depending on others. i kno i kno i kno that materialistic things do not replace my own happiness from the people in my life that aren't there physically. overall in general i still maintain to smile--maybe because of how i was brought up. i just smile because i feel like its right but dont think about the "show" that im really putting on to please others. so many think that just because u have this, go here, or do that you should be the happiest person in the world && i just know thats not true. i just want to find my happiness soon.
i would like to make sooo many changes. with the new school year coming up i want alll my grades to be on point. i dont want to struggle with math again and worry about where i'll be if i dont pass one class. i will not surround my self around people that aren't positive, dramatic-drama, stressing me,distracting me, or that i know arent helping me get where i need to be at the end of the day. others feelings are not something i will worry about either, if i want to say No or say what i have to im not gonna hold back for any one either. I tend to just go with the flow often or just be pleasing to the ear, but i think that's really fake-im not fake-won't be fake && don't like nor entertain fakes. as it stands i dont have friends [cept my own best friends the realest ones ill probably ever get] but many acquaintances, i do believe that many of those i thought where there for me aren't and they are haters. i neverrrr thought that they were haters or would have considered them as that, until someone else brought it to my attention. i know who my real friends are and im content with knowing that i have them. i plan to just stay to myself a lot and focus on my next move. it may be best for me to stay on the side where i am and find out the opportunities i can come across.
Relationships--ahh as much as i loved being in one i dont think i need to be in another one any time soon. i wasnt one to be in many but i did cherish my first/last one it was very special. i know that i wont have one like that again. i learned many lessons from that, and i will carry those on to my next one to be a better gf for ever katches my heart again. && i just dont agree with just fux`n any one just for the feeling of sex which only last for a moment, i think you should cherish your self for that special person. i deff wont consider anyone less than my equal. i`ve seen it go bad tooo many times and my standards are still HIGH. in the past it was always one person doing more than the other, now i think everyone should be giving their own 100% to make it last. if i could do it all over i know the ways i would change but as im still learning i just do what i think is right....
Now wrapping up this summer i have really enjoyed it. i think i had a very successful summer and got a lot done. ready to get this year out--kant wait to see how i will change, and all the new things i'll learn by this time next year! ;)
--Lo0vely..
`e m o
happiness doesnt always last foreveR. :(
kant wait till wednesday my mommy will home && thats when i`ll smile aqain && actually mean it.
--Lo0vely* [alwayz]
kant wait till wednesday my mommy will home && thats when i`ll smile aqain && actually mean it.
--Lo0vely* [alwayz]
Friday, August 14
; I`M Baq
So i guesz i took a 2 month break from bloqqinq.
lolz
i mean i just been living tho, but i`ve decided to kome baq after abandoning my bloq. && i`ll just keep it qoinn like i never left (-;
Too Be Kontinued..
--Lo0vely
lolz
i mean i just been living tho, but i`ve decided to kome baq after abandoning my bloq. && i`ll just keep it qoinn like i never left (-;
Too Be Kontinued..
--Lo0vely
Sunday, June 14
# 1oo!
;Yes yes yes takes a bow* this is the 1ooth blog of mine here, just gonna keep it simple && qive that qreat `ol update nice && Tashaish ;-}.
Sooo Whats new----gee qot back in SD couple nites ago, kinda been on the qo ever since. Not doin tooo Much not but not too lil either haha. anywho friday i qot some stuff done with my car like my tint on the kar, kinda wanna go back && get it a lil darker soo mite one day this week. I kant bee beinq seen lolz, but i got it light because i was scared i wouldnt be able to see at nite && with my driving s m h--But its all qood. After that taking 3 hours no really like 4 out my day, i jus came home && chilled for a few till i could find something going on that nite, of course being SD no luck with that, sooo randomly my friend {well he's an ex but i dn`t klaim him as that lolz sometimes smh} kalls me and he's like wanna go to the movies? i'll pay for you n shxt. when ppl say thinqs you NEVERRR have heard them say or do you wanna jump on these opportunities asap, lolz. Soo im like sureee aint like im doin anything. But all day my cousin was talkin bout going to AppleBee`s for this 2 for $2o special, he hellla wanted to go too, Im not the biqqest fan of that place but watever so i agreed to just go there with him, whole time im there im arguing with the ex cause he's like where u at?? lmao {but it's normal we argue every week} its like damn near 10pm and i knewww i wasnt tryna go to a movie, but i did kinda feel bad for fluke`n him lolz. then i agreed to just stop by and say hi, so ended dinner at applebee's it was straight got some pasta (stopped eating bread again Friday its day 3 && going swell), dropped off my cousin, and qot JeNN {wasnt tryna go solo} so we get to my ex's and then ended up going to a kick back for this boy's bday- they just had hella drinks but i didnt really know anyone in there cept the boy and ppl i was with. deff had some Nuvo ;-} but just a swig and a sip of this Pink Panties drink--and after that we left lolz. made in early and all. Plus i had to work saturday.
So Sat went to work a good 6 hours. Came home around 3 it was a nice day so i was still tryna find something to do. Got dressed and was doing my hair, then He comez over all unannounced SMHhh, so im nice at first but i still kant stand my ex {the last ex lolz} i love him to death but i dont like him for shxt he knows it too--But he's hittin me with the small talk like the answers that dont really tell you a damn thing, i mean thats cute for people you've known a week, but when your CLOSE to someone thatz some bullshxt, ahhh soo in the little 5minutes the convo lasted im gettin pissed with him actin new, so i just got up and left. No bye or nuthin, drove off lightweight tried to hit him smh {wanted too} but didnt. Then i went on some missions with the cuzzo downtown and wayy out to this new Sonic drive-in they made out here. It wasnt worth it cause it wasnt that good anyways, idk maybe in the south it's better but i dont see me going out to get any of that anymore, and the line was a mile long smh.
Defff didnt even wait in it, can't say i cut cause we didnt realize the line when we pulled in lolz. After all that headed home slept, woke up for church today. wanted to make the 8am service, but ended up going to the 11. I went alone, but soon as i sat down i realized i was sittin next to this one boy from my Hs, churchh was kooollll gonna make it a priority to go weekly. ;-} the rest of my day was pretty bland, was lookin for somewhere to watch the game at but no luck, ended up postin on the couch, went to cold stone got some ice cream [fat smh]. kame home where i pretty much am now. Yes the magic's lost smh--Kobe didnt act aas cocky as i thought he would winning, so im glad for him job well done w/o Shaq. Horay! D.Howard's still yound he got time, NUGGETS is over there getting ready for next season. hayyy*
All week been listening to amerie love that chick! all her old albums are the bizz specially all i have. On the brighter side i start class tomorrow smh right in the middle of my damn day! ahh but its over July 23 doesnt seem too bad when i think about it. Other than that imma go to my old school's graduation then start my new gym commitment 7-9pm! im ready.
Summmer Summmmer Summmerrr Summmmerrr TiiMMMeeee!
--Lo0vely
Sooo Whats new----gee qot back in SD couple nites ago, kinda been on the qo ever since. Not doin tooo Much not but not too lil either haha. anywho friday i qot some stuff done with my car like my tint on the kar, kinda wanna go back && get it a lil darker soo mite one day this week. I kant bee beinq seen lolz, but i got it light because i was scared i wouldnt be able to see at nite && with my driving s m h--But its all qood. After that taking 3 hours no really like 4 out my day, i jus came home && chilled for a few till i could find something going on that nite, of course being SD no luck with that, sooo randomly my friend {well he's an ex but i dn`t klaim him as that lolz sometimes smh} kalls me and he's like wanna go to the movies? i'll pay for you n shxt. when ppl say thinqs you NEVERRR have heard them say or do you wanna jump on these opportunities asap, lolz. Soo im like sureee aint like im doin anything. But all day my cousin was talkin bout going to AppleBee`s for this 2 for $2o special, he hellla wanted to go too, Im not the biqqest fan of that place but watever so i agreed to just go there with him, whole time im there im arguing with the ex cause he's like where u at?? lmao {but it's normal we argue every week} its like damn near 10pm and i knewww i wasnt tryna go to a movie, but i did kinda feel bad for fluke`n him lolz. then i agreed to just stop by and say hi, so ended dinner at applebee's it was straight got some pasta (stopped eating bread again Friday its day 3 && going swell), dropped off my cousin, and qot JeNN {wasnt tryna go solo} so we get to my ex's and then ended up going to a kick back for this boy's bday- they just had hella drinks but i didnt really know anyone in there cept the boy and ppl i was with. deff had some Nuvo ;-} but just a swig and a sip of this Pink Panties drink--and after that we left lolz. made in early and all. Plus i had to work saturday.
So Sat went to work a good 6 hours. Came home around 3 it was a nice day so i was still tryna find something to do. Got dressed and was doing my hair, then He comez over all unannounced SMHhh, so im nice at first but i still kant stand my ex {the last ex lolz} i love him to death but i dont like him for shxt he knows it too--But he's hittin me with the small talk like the answers that dont really tell you a damn thing, i mean thats cute for people you've known a week, but when your CLOSE to someone thatz some bullshxt, ahhh soo in the little 5minutes the convo lasted im gettin pissed with him actin new, so i just got up and left. No bye or nuthin, drove off lightweight tried to hit him smh {wanted too} but didnt. Then i went on some missions with the cuzzo downtown and wayy out to this new Sonic drive-in they made out here. It wasnt worth it cause it wasnt that good anyways, idk maybe in the south it's better but i dont see me going out to get any of that anymore, and the line was a mile long smh.
Defff didnt even wait in it, can't say i cut cause we didnt realize the line when we pulled in lolz. After all that headed home slept, woke up for church today. wanted to make the 8am service, but ended up going to the 11. I went alone, but soon as i sat down i realized i was sittin next to this one boy from my Hs, churchh was kooollll gonna make it a priority to go weekly. ;-} the rest of my day was pretty bland, was lookin for somewhere to watch the game at but no luck, ended up postin on the couch, went to cold stone got some ice cream [fat smh]. kame home where i pretty much am now. Yes the magic's lost smh--Kobe didnt act aas cocky as i thought he would winning, so im glad for him job well done w/o Shaq. Horay! D.Howard's still yound he got time, NUGGETS is over there getting ready for next season. hayyy*
All week been listening to amerie love that chick! all her old albums are the bizz specially all i have. On the brighter side i start class tomorrow smh right in the middle of my damn day! ahh but its over July 23 doesnt seem too bad when i think about it. Other than that imma go to my old school's graduation then start my new gym commitment 7-9pm! im ready.
Summmer Summmmer Summmerrr Summmmerrr TiiMMMeeee!
--Lo0vely
Thursday, June 11
; at last!
Content with beinq S i N G L E!!
wasn't sure id have the feelinq again lolz but its qreat over him no ill say PAST him! ;-}
--
-Him` that hayyy*
--Lo0vely
Wednesday, June 10
Tuesday, June 9
; hmmz
; im content with the idea that he`s not qoinq anywhere..&& thats quite okay with me.
--Lo0vely*
--Lo0vely*
--ugh
earlier i was irritated with my momz still am but im not trippen any more just gonna do what i have to do...
soooo tired of doing online applications for a job! i feel like im doing them and they're not going anywhere- i mean im not hearing anything back. Just did one for the Zoo it seems hopeful. && i still needa register for an english class ASAP i have a busy thursday ahead after i qet back to daygo muchhoo errands--
"my life my life my life my life in the Sunshine"
--Lo0vely*
soooo tired of doing online applications for a job! i feel like im doing them and they're not going anywhere- i mean im not hearing anything back. Just did one for the Zoo it seems hopeful. && i still needa register for an english class ASAP i have a busy thursday ahead after i qet back to daygo muchhoo errands--
"my life my life my life my life in the Sunshine"
--Lo0vely*
; all niqht lonq
-- heard this sonq yesterday reminded me how much i loved it && used to play this cd --Mary Jane (All Night Long) - Mary J. Blige
Monday, June 8
;Eye.Wanna--
- i wanna be happy [always]
- I wanna design my own masion
- i wanna finish school in 4 years
- i wanna get a job soon
- i wanna have a career right out of college
- i wanna learn how to do the thinqs i always wanted 2
- i wanna learn how to fix a turkey // a whole thanksgiving dinner
- i wanna qo on one of those carnival cruises
- i wanna be married before im like 29
- i wanna qo to cosmetology school
- i wanna drive a big suv truck when im older idk which one
- i wanna stripper body--hott
- i wanna stop usinq aim/fb/myspace soon
- i wanna drink and actually say im drunk
- i wanna mac laptop
- i wanna be a vegetarian for a while
- i wanna qet a tattoo by the end of summer
- i wanna make a great beat soon too
- i wanna be a Realtor
- i wanna go on a road trip;; && i still wanna go to montana
- i wanna always have that 1 person to vent to 24/7
- i wanna volunteer with kids and homeless ppl
- i wanna be humble
- i wanna be as realistic as i want other ppl to be
- i wanna qo clubbin til im tired of it
- i wanna system for my car
- i wanna go shoppinq for heels
- i wanna go to the gym daily && lo0se some lbs.
- i wanna big pool and jacuzzi in my "crib"
- i wanna have 2-3 kids after that marriage
- i wanna join church soon
- i wanna couple more designer purses [flashy like]
- i wanna qo back to Atl
- i wanna be able to marry my soulmate [no randoms for $$]
- i wanna always work hard for what i want
- i wanna get some 14 inch indi remy
- stop eatinq all fast food including subway
- i wanna take boxinq lessons
- i wanna go jet skiinq
- i wanna pull all niqhters of just random talks
- i wanna rap a good a freestyle lolzz
- i wanna be surrounded by ppl i actually like
- i wanna go to italy again
- i wanna webcam stilll
- i wanna C cup
- i wanna be a manager
- i wanna understand quys
- i wanna not be shy or worried about what others think
- i wanna have good health
- i wanna always say how i feel
- i wanna kinq size bed
- i wanna cry tears of joy
- i wanna black cocker spaniel
- i wanna jus follow me
- i wanna sexonthebeach
- i wanna stay classy
- i wanna hear a song i never want to end
- i wanna kiss outside in summer rain
- i wanna stop eating fried foods
- i wanna be in the audience at a maury show
- i wanna go on weekend camping trips
- i wanna only change for the good
- i wanna laugh more than i cry
- i wanna fight just to make up in the end
- i wanna live my visions
- i wanna always stand out && be different
- i wanna sit on the couch with my lover && watch movies
- i wanna i wanna i wanna.......
Weekend in DC
Friday, June 5
Thursday, June 4
;;o0h miami!
ahhh watchinq this i hella wanna go0 to0 Miami!
im thinkin my 21st bday it is! jus gotta see which "friends" ill take the trip with, they gotta be fun tho!
im thinkin my 21st bday it is! jus gotta see which "friends" ill take the trip with, they gotta be fun tho!
Wednesday, June 3
; jus a thouqht
// when you ask for somethinq then get it, treat every moment precious because you never know when you might not have it again!
--lo0vely
o3rd of JunE
; like hayy so0o kurrently on vacay well basically just really at home but vacay from cali lolz
in the past 24 hours i dont think i`ve seen so0 much lightin` && thunder. im normally sleep every once in a blue mo0n th0se occur out in CA anyways. lolz. So0 since i lo0st my wallet && ID 2 weeks ago, today i finally got one back. My first piece of ID in two weeks, now i see why the hell those are so important to have, hmmz. NEVER EVER EVERR WANNA LO0SE MY FREAKIN WALLET AGAIN! ughhh. hopefully wen i get back to ca my license && bank card willl be in then things will be on && poppin again [hayy*].
today i always went out 2 bare feet store and brought some more sandals, i dont think i realized until this year how damn cute they can be, i tried to buy the whole store but i decided it wasn't that serious and settled for two pairs. && ive been doing a great job with gettin the pedicures in every 2 weeks, i kare about my feet. only burden is today i realize my freakin toe nail is starting to break! grrrrr if that isn't theeeeeee most annoying thing in the world, && i dont wanna rip it off cuz thas gonna look ugly, but it can't really stay on kuz i mean damn its broke on the whole side SMFHHHHHH. but i did put some clear nail polish over it so ill see how long it holds up ;-] ha
wow i kant believe everything o0n me is REALLLL! including hair and nails. [never did have fakes with anything else] but yea its impressive to me just wanted to add that in. idk how much longer i can do flat ironing my hair daily tho, so0 im pretty sure next week some kinda sumthg is gonna have to be added in to0---gotta hit up thee personal stylist JTG for that...gotta l0ve it..
im glad i brought my laptop with me cause ever since my fone got it;s lil update my aim willll not sign me on for shxt! pay all that money for a phone and kant get a go0d free aim smh--sadd t-bobo.
well i think imma flip thru until sleep calls for round 2. i need more comments on my p0st g0tta lo0ve CARL because he alwaysss leaves them!
--Lo0vely*
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